sigh sigh sigh. after two days of collecting my results, the sadness starts to set in. the whole fucked up mixture of feelings. regret. anger. envy. my mind is so full of emotions it keeps turning itself on and off. everytime my mind's awake, it will feel a different feeling. when it gets too tired thinking, it will switch itself off. it gets me very like this ---> >.<
** & i dont wna leave my friends. i wish i never went into first 3 mths. it'll be way easier to let go. waayyy easier. i love you all okay! especially LL, nessa, jane, ABEL, TIMO, DAE YEON, JOHN and not forgetting, carin! i wont forget... POWER OF THREE, nessa's eye and earcandies, jane's juan, my busride back home with daeyeon, john's smooth hair, and abel... just abel. i wont forget... the mattress, our soccer games, pool outings, crapping with abel in caf. ): **
but you know what? i'm not gonna sit around waiting for my results to change. i'm gna accept all critiscms thrown at me from now on. i'm gna swallow my damned pride and APPEAL. i'm gna stay more positive than positive! and less negative than negative! i'm gna do all that i can to secure my future. i'm gna pray for the best. that's what im gna do!
& I'M GONNA GO SHOPPING TMR. i think i will buy that pair of earrings!!! i dont wna die regretting not buying it. *prays that it wont be off the shelves when i go down tmr* too bad i cant make it for tmr's totallydonothingtogether day at nessa's!
i really feels good blogging everything out. its like vomitting all that shit out. er, almost. i got something for ya!
i super love this photo until cannot love anymore la. i donno why the font like that but nvm. this animal is like posing for the camera la! and the angle rocks. look at the animal's hands. >.<
