well, had a bad night. it was horrible, couldnt sleep till four and my eyes hurt like crazy.

woke up at 7.30 to realise that my eyes couldnt open much. we're suppose to go have breakfast with the Breakfast Gang, but since fern wasnt going and joses wasnt sure if he could wake up, i thought i could do without food in the morning. turns out i needed breakfast pretty badly.

so i made myself wanton, it was so stupid man. i took out the wanton skin, and defrosted the meat in the microwave, and i made 4 pathetic wanton for myself. boiled it, ate it, went to sleep. couldnt go back to sleep so i continued reading Order of the Phoenix.

then father bought back breakfast and dou nai for me. dou nai sounds nicer than soyabean milk, you see. then slept till 12 plus and woke up a really really angry girl. i just thought i have to fight for justice, its not fair the way i was being treated. i mean, i did try my best to explain myself, iron things out, but all you could say was 'you dont make sense'. after all that effort to make things okay, you could only have made it worse. and all the stuff you said in the morning made me really really sadded. you always make me feel like an immature idiot. perhaps thats how you really think of me. i havent felt so low for a long time.

low on xstirxi