Kor Kor

Ok, after posting up that nasty entry which I feel quite bad abt(but I don't regret it), I suddenly miss my brother.

Yeah, my lovely brother. You know, I always hated his christian name. Cos his name is Adrian and all I got was a lousy(and so bloody hard to pronounce) Su Cheng. Like, Adrian and Su Cheng. How can they be siblings right! Ugh. I always wondered why I cant be Adrianne or sth nice.

Anyway back to missing my brudder.
): Well, its sad that he's so far away from me. And that everytime we talk on the phone, its always about How's my results and if I'm doing well in school and occasionally How's my life like. We rarely have a heart-to-heart which I'd love to have if he comes back.

Plus he's always scolding me for my lousy results and how I could've done better. Then comes all the pep talk. I know he means well but he doesnt seem to realise I'm trying my best too. He's not here, he cant see.

That aside, we shared great times together.

He's always loved me very much. I remember he bought me this gigantic Mickey Mouse stationery kit for my birthday. Pink erasers and pencils with a strawberry(I think) scent to go with it.

And he organised my birthday party at Mcd cos his friend was working there. And we had soooo much fun! With cousins and all that. There was this 'Who can dress up as a Mcd staff the fastest' game. Hahaha. And we had burgers and fries for lunch! Yum.

But! He was always making me pour water for him, always with a lot ice even though he has asthma. And he always make me scratch his fat and oily back or massage him.

And all that horrible timetable I had to memorise before I went into P1. I will NEVER forget that. It was one of the worse periods of my life. I had to stuff so much numbers into my tiny head and if I didnt get the correct answer, I'll get caned. I rmb always waking up early in the morn to get my 4x5, 8x9 right.

Well, his efforts didnt exactly paid off cos my maths was still quite horrible all the way until sec 1. But it really showed how much he wanted me to become a better student/person. He didnt want me to follow his footsteps and get things done the tougher way.

I guess it still does take some time before I really understand his way of caring for his little sister. But for now, I just hope you quickly study finish (its been like 5 years! ) and come home. Just come home. Cos I miss you.